WHEN ALL ELSE IN MY LIFE FAILS, I HAVE MY CHILDREN
I have reached a low point in my life. This could quite possibly be the lowest point in my life. I’m hanging on to what little faith I have with a very small amount of sanity. When I breath, my heart hurts. When I’m awake my mind wonders. When I sleep, in the little bursts that it comes in, it’s restless. But when all else in my life fails, and when everyone around me fails as well, I have my children. And right now that is all that I need.
She makes me smile the widest.
Although the light at the end of my tunnel is very dim, I know that one day it will be bright once again. I’m starting over. No longer will I be writing personal posts on Penny Pinching Diva. I will be opening up a new website in which I am designing now, and I will only be giving out the link via my daily subscription emails and to my family and friends. I have removed the subscription link from the sidebar until I am done moving my personal posts and pictures over to the new website. Once I announce the name of my new website, I will place the subscription form back.
Pray hard and hold your family close. Never take for granted what you have, and who you have, in your life.
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Whatever you are going through PRAY your way through it.
Shynea, my heart is breaking after reading this. I love you as family and I am here 24/7 should you need me, you have my number. I pray that your heart heals and better things come along and all your troubles are eased.
I wish I could make all your wishes and dreams come true. Hang in there and I am here if you need me. I will continue to pray for you.
Praying for you with a sincere heart.
You will make it through because God loves you.
Keep the faith.
*hugs* Hold on to God as tight as you possibly can! He will help you through this. I sent up a prayer for you about the issues you mentioned in this post. Hold tight to God!
Im so sorry girl that your going through your situation. A setback is a set up for a comeback. Remember the lower you fall, the higher you will come up. God has great things in store for you,and sometimes all you need is a lil faith. Im going through a situation now and all I have is faith. God nevers leaves us nor forsakes us. If you need someone to talk to im here…jus a phone call away. Love you!
I’m here for you sis. If you need to talk Im always here for you anytime. Remember God specializes in things that is impossible. I Love You and you are in my prayers everyday.
I love you Shy. I’ve already said everything on Skype, but wanted to reply here and remind you that I’m always here for you.*hugs*
Shynea,
I’m not sure what it is you are going through but whatever it is, I wish you peace and that you continue to hold on to God’s hand as he will bring you thru. Just wanted to stop by to spread hugs and support.
Take Care.
hey lady i just want to tell u to stand strong n stay encouraged bcause u know from trying to read yr bible in a year that GOD is so good all the time n u know when u feel yr alone r no one else is there GOD never leaves r forsakes us never 4get that u have helped me every since i saw yr website in my essence subscription i mean look what u have accomplished girl so know GOD has yr back never give up u and yr family take care
also congratulations on yr gorgeous baby girl i too have been going through lately n loss my little cuzn and been feeling so emotionally distraught about how my life is going n reading this has helped me snap out of it i needed this so love u and GOD Bless i don’t even know u but feel i do GOD makes sure we connect with ppl he knows will assist us n life i do believe that take care
I agree with Kenesha. I also commend you for your success (I’m calling it now!) on the Mom Hosting site and the other site you’re doing for Christian moms while holding down the fort at home. Baby girl is absolutely gorgeous and God has truly blessed you thus far.
Shynea, You’re there! This is the exact place that God needs you to be in order to show himself Great and Mighty. See, sometimes he has to allow us to get sick and tired of trying to do it on our own, when we are weak and about ready to throw in the towel, when we feel as though we don’t have another once of energy….that is when God says…Okay, my child is ready now, ready for me to take over because they have come to realize they can not do it by themselves. Look to the Hills from whence cometh your help, and seek ye FIRST the kindom of heaven and all these things shall be added unto you……ask God, lean on God, seek God……and he will give you the desires of your heart. Get into to your word, learn his promises, live a life worthy of his promise, and then wait on his promise. His word says he is not a man that he should lie, and his word will not return unto him void but it Shall accomplish that which it was sent to do or fulfill. I am praying for you. I am confident that this is a test that you will pass so that you will be strength and a testimony to be used by God to encourage and help someone else along the way. Love you and thanks for ministering to us everyday with your gift of love and wisdom.
Shynea,
May God give you beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for sadness and the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness. When you seem to be running short on faith – lean on my faith because I know God is going to bring you through whatever you are going through. My spirit begins to shout now because of the woman you are becoming through your trials. You are on the potters wheel and it’s not easy but just remember He has His hands on you.
N
P.U.S.H
pray until something happens
girl, you’ll get through this. i was in same predicament; I made it you will too!!!:) I have three children, getting married again (3rd) in October!!!
Just keep trusting in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding and I know the Lord will see you thru. Don’t give up.
May God be with you!!
Keep the faith Shynea…
Shynea…I can’t believe how grown the baby is looking already!!! She is absolutely beautiful
Now, down to business…it hurts when I read this, because you described so perfectly what I’ve felt before. When breathing feels like you’re breaking. I wish I had the perfect words to take you through your struggle. Keep believing girl…God uses our struggles to bring us closer to Him. And He may not do it our way, but He does it the best way. Hard to see in the midst of a struggle, I know. Boy, do I know. Stay strong! You are such a strong person, and have been through so much in life already. I can’t imagine how much stronger you’ll be when you get to the other side of this mountain. Hugs.
i always enjoy your writing and it is always pleasant reading your post. I will be praying for you and also have my family pray for you, there is power in numbers coming together to pray for one another. God knows your needs and the needs of your children and he loves you.
I pray that God will be your strength through whatever you are going though. Look to him for guidance & direction, continue to praise Him for the blessings coming your way because THEY ARE coming!
When I saw the title of your post, my heart started hurting for you. I am a pretty quiet reader but I follow your blog all the time. I’ve noticed things haven’t been going too well with you lately. You and your family are always on my mind and in my prayers. Pray hard. God will bring you through.
When I saw your post I needed to respond and tell you at this time you have to LET GO AND LET GOD. He has already seen what you are going through it did not catch him by surprise, he has it all planned out on your behalf. You just trust in him and he will work out for you and your children. Continue to be blessed and loving your babies with all your heart. Lean on your heavenly father he is working on your behalf.
We fall down but we get up and remember God is in control. Listen to this song I Believe by James Fortune and listen to the lyrics.
Dont feel like you are alone, that is the first mistake. Ive been taking inventory of the air and there is something amist. Be very kind to yourself, its just a moment in time when leaning on and learning from God is imperative.
I am reading a book called “Who Switched Off My Brain?” by Caroline Leaf. This book will explain a lot of what you are feeling. I encourage you to get it. Its a short read but intense. You…we…literally have to change the connection in our minds or we will internally suffer.
The heart and mind are connected and its time we believe the Word…”For as [she] thinks in [her] heart, so is [she]…” Prov 23:7
Please…get the book!
GOD will see you thru your situation. LEAN ON HIM and BELIEVE IN HIM!!!!
To Go Against One’s Conscience Is Neither Safe Nor Right. Here I stand. I Cannot Do Otherwise.”….Martin Luther
Cracked But Not Broken
A friend once used the term “Cracked But Not Broken”. Wow, how appropriate when describing “going through”. It is amazing how God allows us to “go through” and despite any nicks or cracks, we are not broken. It isn’t until we are older and wiser that we can appreciate the scars and memories of how we over came.
When we come across furniture that has fine cracks, it is said to have character and value. We classify it as an antique. The term antique has this unspoken value attached to it. When I look at my grandmother, who I love and adore, I appreciate her value. She will often speak of her life. I marvel at her tenacity, courage, resilience, spunk, and her unapologetic attitude towards life. Her wrinkles, her furrows across her forehead, her slow methodical movements and her quick agile sharp mind are unapproachable. Her sense of humor is contagious. Her love for her family is unquestionable. Her stories of hardship are heart wrenching, but through it all she made it through., “Cracked But Not Broken”.
I besiege you, my queens, to not allow your situation to break you. Take these moments of darkness and emptiness and learn the lessons from these experiences. Take with you the wherewith all not to allow yourself to fall victim to the same dark and empty experience again.
Oh, you will have some cracks and bruises. Some will dissipate with time but others will remain to remind us of that place and our struggle to remove ourselves from that place. Just remember and call out the name of Jesus, our mothers, sisters, aunts, grandmothers and other women of yesteryears who are no longer here and our sisters who are here now. Reach out for that unwavering and never ending presence of God, for those cracks are like the imperfect circles that are used to count the years of a tree, they are like the beauty of our graying hairs to signify grace, wisdom, experience, and fortitude.
Remember the challenge of repairing a crack is far less challenging than the repair of something broken.
Peace and Blessings,
Tracey ReNissa