I’m making a quick post to let y’all know that I haven’t disappeared. My laptop crashed on me and it is getting fixed now as we speak. I believe in the saying when it rains it pours and it is pouring on me now as I speak. I am trying to keep myself uplifted but it is really hard when things keep crashing around me. People are reveling in my despair and is taking every advantage they can to keep me down. The only thing I can do is not stress myself about any of the situations and try to fix what I can when I get my computer back.

I am trying to keep my YouTube channel updated with videos until my laptop is fixed. I have an opportunity that was presented to me about going to Iraq for six months and I would love to hear y’alls opinion on it. I am currently weighing the pros and cons but this is a reall tough decision for me.

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  1. Thank you for posting this vlog. You are such a strong woman, and I am so inspired by how much you have already sacrificed for your family. In my opinion I probably would not go to Iraq because it does not look like things are improving in the middle east, and it may not be wise to put your life in jeopardy as you well know.

    I will say that I believe God will make a way for you. If one opportunity comes…sure enough another is around the corner. Your children are so blessed to have you as a mother. Keep the faith and trust in the Lord regardless of the circumstances.

    Matthew 5:6 “Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.”

    I will be praying for your decisions and your family. All is not lost Diva!

  2. wow! That is a lot money and would be quite a nest egg. Just search your soul and you really probably already know the answer. I wish you the best of luck coming to a decision you can live with. If you go you will miss so much with your kids but…If you stay you will be kicking yourself for passing on the opportunity. Either way you are smart and creative, if you go you will still write or talk to your kids or leave them videos of you so they can watch them till your return but… if you stay I know you will come up with a way to reach your goal of owning a home.
    Our men and women in service sacrifice so much to defend our country. Im a little confused about what you would be doing there have you served before? Sorry if you’ve said I couldn’t hear you video too well.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, wishing you the best.


  3. What a dilemma! I don’t really know if I have any advice to offer, but I will be praying that God will show you what will be best for your family. Sending you hugs!

  4. Get still and He’ll send you an answer!!!!

  5. I know no one else will say it so I will…DAMN! That’s a lot of money for 6 months.

    Okay, first off…baby girl will not forget you in six months time. Certainly you will miss some moments you would otherwise rather not, but she will definitely not forget you. This is a very difficult dilemma because the payoff is great, but so is the sacrifice and you have to figure out if the end justifies the means. I could come up with a whole laundry list of pros and cons for either decision, but the real bottom line is that this is a decision that can only be made after you put this before the Lord. Period. No one has the foresight to know how this could affect your life if you go, or how it will affect your life if you stay. Just pray over it..steadfastedly and earnestly and you will have peace with either decision you make.

  6. This is tough! BUT…Abraham thought he had to sacrafice his son and out of obedience (which is better than sacrifice) God blessed him beyond measure. Abraham is the “Father of Faith” to us as his descendants and we should rest assured that God will take care of us as He did him. As a mom I know of this choice. I feel its a time/season where some moms are being call back to “something” I can’t explain but its a gut-tearing sacrafice and some of us are confused that it causes anxiety. Thats because we’re trying to figure out the logistics.

    Only God can tell you how I don’t want to put Josh in daycare but there is a beacon some of us have to answer that requires giving up a precious gift out of obedience.

    Take just a little time but follow that “still small voice” leading you, I know you hear it, you cant’t deny it. Trust Him!! You don’t know what you are being set up for in the future if you fret not.

    I can’t tell you here nor there but I can tell you don’t let flesh determine or brow-beat you for any decision you make.

    I love you!!!


  7. You haven’t made it clear what you will be doing in Iraq to make $50,000 in six months it does sound good, but doesn’t sound very realistic. If I were you I would do a little research about the job and making sure it’s an legitimate opportunity. I personally would not leave my children for no amount of money.

    Maybe you could get some assistance form the state. There are programs for housing, food stamps, child care, utilities, and transportation. I would also make sure that your children’s father are all on child support…you didn’t make those children alone and they deserve to get everything they need financially. As far as working outside of the home, I would try to find a job working in a hospital, it’s open 24hrs! Maybe a family memeber or friend can watch your children while they are sleep at night and you can work. I’m a single mom of 3 children and I worked night shift as a Patient Technician for 6yrs until my children were all of school age, and a better oppportunity came along. The hospital also offers 12 hour shifts in which you could work 3 days a week and the rest of the week you are home with the kids. You can work overtime and save money. Thirdly, check out the housing opportunities in your state and look up Family Self Sufficiency Program. I am currently on the Family Self Sufficiency Program and have earned my way up and I’m currently on my way to homewonership. You can do it, swallow your pride, make some sacrifices and make sure you get those fathers on child support. You seem like a smart girl and a good mother, I hope that you make the right decision. Lastly, try not to stress too much! Enjoy your children, home is where God may want you right now with your childen….pray and he will make a way for you!

  8. My fiance was actually presented with working in Iraq for a year last year. He is currently still there. I will say making the decision to go was a very hard one. Yes you will miss time with love ones and it will be hard some days. I will just say pray about and he will give you the answer.

  9. First of all — I LOVE YOU!!!!! I admire you SO much for even considering making such a sacrifice to provide a great life for your kids. I obviously can’t tell you what you should or shouldn’t do but I can tell you that the drive you have within you will only take you higher from here. *hugs* No matter what, I always got your back!!! Oh and girl please! NaNa will NOT be forgetting her mama in no 6 months! That girl is spoiled and would have you on the brain every day until you got back!!! 🙂

  10. Pray and let GOD lead you.

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